This heavy heart.

The question that's been replaying itself over and over again in my head over the last few week or so has been: "God, will I feel like this forever?"

Of course, I know the answer is "no" but in the midst of all this, it's hard to believe it. My heart is heavy with grief and guilt. My mind is pre-occupied with this relationship break-up. It hurts. 

I feel lonely, even though my friends have been wonderful and have surrounded me. 

I feel guilty, even though I know that the decision was the right one and the kindest one in the long term.

I feel depressed, even though there is much to be joyful about.

I AM CLOSE TO YOU.

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed." (Psalm 34 v 18)

I feel like lots of people hate me, that they are against me.

I AM CLOSE TO YOU.
"If God is for us, who can ever be against us?" (Romans 8 v 31)


I am scared of the future.


I AM CLOSE TO YOU
"For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go." (Psalm 91 v 11)

Thank you, Jesus.